hello people.

just dropping by my half dead blog to say "HI, I'm alive!"

Too many things happening in my life right now, i'd say it feels like a rollercoaster but it sounds too cliche. And I am not exactly a fan of baring my soul for the world to see.... Except for those really embarassing moments when someone actually manages to get something out of me. damn you!

So anyway, I'm heading off to Pangkor for a LONG needed holiday on the 11th. Don't miss me..... On second thoughts, its not like yall did anyway...:( dun fwen u all.

Oh, im back to job hunting again. Do pray for me. thanks.

Like them Migrating Birds

I have this sudden need to get out of this place. Away from Malaysia. The feelings pretty bad, so bad that I feel like I'm hyperventilating. No, I'm like over dramatizing what I'm feeling. Hearts beating pretty hard, palms-a-sweating and I'm feeling its kinda hard to breathe. Thats what hyperventilating is, right?

I have no idea why, though.

Can anyone help me... please.

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You know...I love all of gods creation and the metaphors it inspires,
but those butterflies has got to be murdered!
Blair Waldorf

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I know... I know, it took me long enough to update this blog aand to watch Gossip Girl. (Yes, that quote is from GG) Owh come on, like you don't know how much procrastinating defines me. Heh!



I'm only a few episodes shy from the end of the season and I have a few thoughts on the TV series itself. Like hello, damn shallow OK.

Well first things first, it mostly involves the social elite living their life. Parties, sex and money. I mean, how original can it get? Altough they do have this not so rich boy who dispises the saperation of class and the benefits of living as a social elite....Then he dates a girl from this so called class who seems to be a reformed bitch. wow. sense my sarcasm.

But you know how watching all this elites crash and burn is MY guilty pleasure. Altough its only a series.

But then again, talking about guilty pleasures. Hmm.... eye candies these actors are (I dont care for the actresses).I know in one of my earlier post on MY TOP 10 HOTTEST MEN that Chance Crawford is one of them. After watching GG and getting to know Nathaniel Archibald better I totally changed my mind. Nate seems to be like, someone with no balls. To be nice. I mean, he totally lets his parents control his life, even if HE wanted to do what thought was best for him. Even his best friend played him out. And he seems a little whiney. Yes thats it. Whiney. Even with that name they gave him. Nathaniel i can live with. Ar-chi-BALD. No. I mean who goes around throwing money while plastering THAT names on libraries or anything else for that matter. But actually he is very very handsome.

(Oh wait, Teluk Intan's old name was Teluk Anson. Named after Archibald Anson. Har Har)

Then my sights shifted to the pervy best friend, Chuck Bass. The guy who bangs anything with two legs and boobs. He's nasty, snarky, cunning and self absorbed. Whats not to like? Plus he is damn sexy altough not so hansome. Yes i totally adore Chuck Bass. Though he hunches. Maybe its a Ed Westwick thing? I dunno, but what I do know I have a number 11 on my TOP 10 Hottest Men.

Yes. No. 10 still holds his place because in ep. 11, ( i think) when he took of his shirt my mouth hung open for quite some time and all i thought was "Oh la la". And THAT makes him deserve a place in number ten. Or maybe number 5.

You know you love me.

xoxo,
Cynthia.

Me bored...again

I've been pretty depressed lately. No pin pointing where this comes from but i think it is mainly coming from me not being able to find a job and having too much time on my hand.

Btw, in my total boredom I've been colour-ing stuff on photoshop. I have many half done stuff, it is very usual for me cos i always dont finish what I start. Only a few are finished art...only a few.

Anyway, i is bored gila babi(as mentioned earlier) that i actually finished something i started 2 days ago. took me about 5 hours all together minus-ing the times i went to sleep, bathe, eat, watch tv(wow right.... so damned busywtf).

Anyway, not to confuse people again. The line-art, the one where it is 'DRAWN' by pen is done by nami86. You can see her work on her deviantart account. ---> nami86 .

She's got really good fan-art and her works make innocent couple's you see on tv look soooo 18sx. Really.

Anyway this is the line art she drew.



And this is the coloring (called digital painting but i prefer to call it colouring cos im childish like that) i did.


[thanks denise. i corrected it already]

The only thing I like about this colouring is the hair. Nice right....nice right.... Please tell me its nice or ill kill myself. (click to make it bigger, if not whats the point?)

no really.

I hate the skin. Apparently I can only make one texture of cloth. Cotton. Was hoping to make her baju look silky but apparently tak jadi. So, comment please. like, no like. whatever lar, dun worry i wont kill myself.

Oh, just to inform you guys that those two are Edward and Bella of Twilight.

Adam Lambert

Omg... he doesn't only look good in his dark eyeliner dash rocker appearance, but too look that good cleaned up and with a suit?

Last night, I had a dream that I had the ability to call rain. (Well, last night I was watching catch-up episodes of 'Heroes'. Figures.)

Funny,

how when I was younger, my whole family used to make fun of my singing. They use to say things like

"ei, don't sing....later I want to go play football"
"my clothes cannot dry-lah later??!"
"Cynthia, afterwards got thunderstom lar..dont!!"
-.-"

so, my brother decided to come up with something positive to so-called make me happy.

"If you sing in Africa, I'm sure you would be a millionaire!"

=.="

You know, sometimes i despise the lack of privacy that I have. It seems like everything I do is in need for more details. It get pretty annoying really, to the extend that I might just tell them off. You might think why not I tell them off straight forward. Here's the problem:

1) The people doing this to me are my family. Thus, need to control and not tell the whole world how plainly annoying they can be.

2) If I respond to whatever that they are trying to probe from me, they will take it the wrong way no matter what I tell them.

3) If i get angry, It's worse.

So, What the fuck am I to do????! Damn annoying I tell u. Ish.